A million miles away...

My Family is Jamaican, Indian, Belezian and Haitian.. I come from a big family, I have 3 brothers and 3 sisters. I'm the 4th child born into this family. My brother Matthew is the 3rd and he's away at school in Japan... When he left I was cool with it, now that he's gone I feel so alone.. Who can I tell my secrets to? no one else in my family understand me like he do. I write him letters and send him e-mails but it's not the same I never get an automatic reply... I can't wait until september until he comes back.